I miss my friends

I miss my friends.

I miss talking to them and having wild laughters. I find it funny that most of my friends and I live in the same city but we hardly see each other. Maybe, it's because we live in one of the largest cities in the Philippines that is why distance is such a problem. Or perhaps, our busy schedules never meet in the middle.

There was a time right after college graduation, that I joined them in an adventure far away from home. The experience was liberating for me having lived for the past 20 years of my life under the watchful eyes of my folks. My friends taught me several things about life, myself and in return I know they also learned something from me: control. Yes, I am a control freak. I just realized that now while writing this.

Today, I saw a dear friend. Not that we agreed to meet, but we happen to be on the same building at the same time. She was with her beau. I'd like to think that I am friends with her boyfriend but it felt different when an outsider is among our friendship circle. Can't talk too much, can't share secrets.

I wish I can see them more often. I miss my friends.

When your brain is in lazy mode

Here I am again. I just hate it when I am in this kind of phase. Knowing that I still have tons to do but my brain has stopped working. Or I'd like to put it that it my brain auto-switched to lazy mode.

It's terrible. I make a living as a writer and every time I go into lazy mode, I feel like I suck at my job. Heck, I do think I suck at my job. Although no one told me yet because none of my bosses are into writing either so nobody here at my workplace is capable of criticizing the things I come up with.

So what am I to do? I've read in Copyblogger that to become a better writer, you have to keep on writing even if you can't write anything at all. SO that's what I'm doing now. Perhaps, my brain will be motivated to switch back to its working mode.

Does this happen to you also? Or is it just me and my lazy self.

Better go out and smoke.