After the training, my life has been pretty hectic. But I'm starting to warm up to it. After a month long training in Manila, I realized that there's still a lot that I need to learn and experience. I hate it when I do not know what to do, it makes me look dumb and clueless but come to think of it, I am clueless (but not dumb, alright?)
First week on the job was tough. I have to get to know the people I work with (e.g my boss, my office mates whom I only see once a week, my new cubicle. Luckily, my work isn't a living hell as what I thought it would be, thanks to my boss who is there to answer my concerns. What scares me is that he might get fed up with it. I just hope and pray that he won't feel that way yet, not until I have fully grasped everything that I needed to function well enough as a trainer.
for the past 4 weeks, I have met so many people that I cannot hardly remember their names neither their faces. And I have to adjust to being called as "ma'am" or "ma'am jean" (it's hard for some to pronounce my name as "Jen"). Plus, my life is like living on a suitcase. Fine, not a suitcase but an overnight bag. I travel frequently, sleeping in less than average hotels and riding on a bus (or my boss'/branch's Crosswind).
So, what lies ahead for me? I do not know. But I imagine myself climbing Mt. Apo, with rough edges and narrow trails. The top is still far, far away. But I can do it. I know I can. Just give me more time so I can be as good as my boss' former subordinates. If they can do it, I sure can too.
Makes me want to sing Miley's song.
